Motherhood: Everything I didn't Know I Needed

I didn’t know I needed the sleepless nights. The feedings and 
skin to skin, just you and I, alone in the night. I have never felt 

so close to someone in my life.

I didn’t know I needed the interruptions. I learned to let it all go; 

the expectations, the schedules, the timelines, the control.

Motherhood has helped me become more accepting of the hard 

moments. Those moments that make the days feel long but, gosh, 

you know all too well, time is passing you by. I’ve learned to hold 

on to the hard because every time that “hard moment” was over, 

I wished for a part of it back.

I didn’t know I needed that smile at the end of every day. The kind 

of smile that comes from your whole body; your eyes light up and 

your hands start waving with excitement. That kind of smile melts 

the stress of the day away, and at that moment, I’m reminded that 

I’m your whole world and you are mine.

I didn’t know I needed to watch you grow. Every small milestone 

has brought so much joy and insight into my life. I have learned to 

grow alongside you; becoming the mom that you need in each season.

I didn’t know I needed to see my husband become a father. 

I discovered a man who wanted to be present in all the moments; 

a true father and life partner. I fell in love all over again.

I didn’t know my family needed a grandchild. I’ve watched every 

person within my family become closer because of you. There is 

more laughter, love and quality time within our small tribe than 

there has been in years. 

I didn’t know I needed instinctive love. The kind of love only a 

child can provide. Love that isn’t chosen or developed 

overtime; it’s pure, raw, and timeless.

One year in and motherhood is everything I didn’t know I needed.